Accident(ally)
I crashed into you
and dented my engine
and in trying to drive
intoxicated of the inhalants
in my attempt to
breathe
I fated my joy
to rely on insurance
because i to am mortal
when I listen to the outside
rather than find that balance
within(you)
gliding on instinct and openness
that aggravate fears that clench my heart
and faint my art
I always want a start
then get a do over
cause you pull over my eyes
the rose color'd comforts
that make easy
so slippery
and wet
hydroplaning into you
trying to take a detour from a destiny
that however much I try
I cant drive by
or misguide myself
from that all encompassing everything
that is you
intensely tempting
fleshy and human
and wholesomeothastuff
I've never seen
and when I wasn't paying attention
to the magnet in front of me
too busy being pulled
I lost control
as the light turned yellow
and ceased being green
smashing into you
trying to elude the inevitable
holding my breath
trying not to gasp
as you squeeze and I let you
and I really couldn't hear you say
it okay
to breathe
and instead of crashing
I shoulda been ridin'
your beautiful terrain
words like lilac laced meadows
i shoulda just rode
that shoreline cliff
with the confidence
that the horrifying heights
are horrible beautiful
leaving lungs filled
with oceans of deeperfree
finding solace in your traffic
driving slow
on your
cruise control.
crawling.back.under.my.rock
