She Lives!
Well I’ve been distracted and along the way this blog has suffered the consequences of my ambition and motivations in the past weeks, let alone my dilemma at attempting to maintain 2 sauti blogs. The other of which is on myspace. But as I was talking to the most beautiful boogieman he reminded me of a challenge I gave myself almost 3 years ago now, consistency. I can’t believe I’ve had this site up for 3 years. Life just moves so fast, in hindsight that is. But anyways, I’m so overdue for a post.
So the update, reasons for my elusiveness and damn near neglect of “Sauti.”
So after my horrible bad day (see previous post) a week later to be exact, I pretty much got canned from my gig at a south west bubblefug chamber of commerce. Now granted the position was a temp to hire gig and technically speaking I was working for my agency and that means I didn’t get fired but rather my assignment changed. I wont go through the details it’s not important and that whole scenario doesn’t even deserve my energy. I can say that in some respect I affirmed a concept that I had been thinking about over the time I’ve dealt with cancer. Cancer is an interesting creature. It’s your body turning completely against you. When I found out I had cancer I had to do some serious re-evaluation of who I thought I was and really get into my soul. You know that mirror gazing type of thang. During that process I realized there was a lot about my person that wasn’t right. A lot about my soul that I ignored and did not care for. On top of that I know in my heart that I had done things, bad things in the past not only to myself but others. Cancer was just an indicator to me. So my theory has been that in some cases and probably more often than not, people get sick cause their soul is sick. So to bring it home I had an experience with someone that I worked with who’s cancer had returned. Based on what I saw in that individual I decided that I need to take internal inventory again. I’m not doing the cancer bit again! *wink* But like I said there was an affirmation that was brought to my attention however abruptly in that last position and though the person I was reporting to. Now we always have to remind ourselves that when things seem to be going wrong or obscenely difficult...God it trying to tell you something. It's up to us to listen. I've had my ears WIDE OPEN!
But where one door closes another opens. I had been looking for work in Atlanta for over a month by this point. There was one particular position I really wanted. One requiring a career change from slummin’ secretary/office goat/phone fugger/ data dipshit/the super temp to something creative. I’ve been deciding that everything in my life needed to change and a new work situation was at the top of the list, along with gettin’ the fugggggggggg outta the backwoods. I couldn’t take another moment of the slow folks, horrible drivers and straight isolation from everything that seems normal to me. So ironically enough after getting the let loose I was to have an interview for a web/graphics design gig in ATL making a reasonable amount more than I had been in bubblefug. Low and behold I now have the position and am thoroughly loving Atlanta! And my job is THE BOMB!
There has been other odds and ends in the middle of all that. Most of all a lot of thinking. It takes a lot of time to decide how your world is going to manifest. It takes even longer to materialize the thoughts your decided. It takes the most energy to be positive about life when all the external signals are trying to convince yourself otherwise different. The irony of it all is that one of the slogans of my new job is “Believe.”
So you see it’s been a little bit of a whirlwind in many respects. Bopefully I’ll get back on the ball with posting more often. I’m sure to have new adventures to speak of.
Big shout out to Berry for still poppin by even in my absence, reminding me that this blog still exist...
SHINE ON GRRRL!
coldchillin.
