Thursday, August 25, 2005
Tommorw Aint Promised
Aaliyah
1979-2001
Wow it's been 4 years since Aaliyah has passed. So much has happened and changed. I still listen to her music. There are quite a few musicians I actually pause and miss hearing new stuff from. Sheeet I'm still feinding some new Marvin Gaye...lol@self. It's interesting today I went for my pre-op for my "procedure" and I was given a "living will". Every time I go to the hospital there is something to remind me of my mortality. The completion of this booklet, if you will, was type heavy. With stuff like;
- If I am close to death...
- If I am in a coma and I am not expected to wake up or recover...
But the most moving part of the booklet was this
My Wish for How Comfortable I Want to Be
(Please cross out anything that you don't agree with)
-I do not want to be in pain. I want my doctor to give me enough medicine to relieve my pain, even if that means that I will be drowsy or sleep more than I would otherwise.
-If I show signs of depression, nausea, shortness of breath, or hallucinations, I want my caregivers to do whatever they can to help me.
-I wish to have a cool most cloth put on my head if I have a fever.
-I want my lips and mouth kept moist to stop dryness.
-I wish to have warm baths often. I wish to be kept fresh and clean at all times.
-I wish to be massaged with warm oils as often as I can be.
-I wish to have my favorite music played when possible until my time of death.
-I wish to have personal care like shaving, nail clipping, hair brushing, and teeth brushing, as long as they do not cause me pain or discomfort.
-I wish to have religious readings and well loved poems read aloud when I am near death.
My Wish for How I Want People to Treat Me
(Please cross out anything that you don't agree with)
-I wish to have people with me when possible. I want someone to be with me when it seems that death may come at any time.
-I wish to have my hand held and to be talked to when possible, even if I don't seem to respond to the voice or touch of others.
-I wish to have others by my side praying for me when possible.
-I wish to have the members of my church or synagogue told that I am sick and asked to pray for me and visit me.
-I wish to be cared for with kindness and cheerfulness, and not sadness.
-I wish to have pictures of my loved ones in my room, near my bed.
-If I am not able to control my bowel or bladder functions, I wish for my clothes and bed linens to be kept clean, and for them to be changed as soon as they can be if they have been soiled.
-I want to die in my home, if that can be done.
My Wish for What I Want my Loved Ones to Know
(Please cross out anything that you don't agree with)
-I wish to have my family members and loved ones know that I love them.
-I wish to be forgiven for the times I have hurt my family, friends, and others.
-I wish to have my family members and friends know that I forgive them for what they may have done to me in my life.
-I wish for my family members and loved ones to know that because of the faith I have, I do not fear death itself. I think it is not the end, but a new beginning for me.
-I wish for all my family members to make peace with each other before my death, if they can.
-I wish for my family and friends to think about what I was like before I had a terminal illness. I want them to remember me in this way after my death.
-I wish for my family and friends to look at my dying as a time of personal growth for everyone, including me. This will help me live a meaningful life in my final days.
-I wish for my family and friends to get counseling if they have trouble with my death. I want memories of my life to give them joy and not sorrow.
-If anyone asks how I want to be remembered, please say the following about me:
The following person knows my funeral wishes:
-If there is to be a memorial service for me, I wish for this service to include the following (list music, songs, readings or other specific requests that you have):
-Add other wishes here (such as your wishes about donating any or all parts of your body when you die):"
WHEW! Yeah thats a bunch of shit to think about. But I'm feeling the play the music up in ma room. When I had my daughter I was bumping major Stevie Wonder and Roy Ayers up in the room. If by chance (knock on wood) I'm on my way out and Im in the hospital, I want some loud ass Tupac BANGIN!!! Damn skippy I want to have a clean ass and some drugs, Dunn! It's a trip that a lot of this stuff has to be put on paper.
Anywhoo...I got a bunch of stuff to make sure I get on paper properly that I've ignored due to my youth. I don't think we ever fewel we are going to need to make such preparations. After watching one of thats episodes of my favorite shoe Six Feet Under my mother started talking bout all this stuff. Of course I was like..."DONWANNAHEARIT". But shit when it's time it's time. In light of that conversation, that episode we watched as well as regular conversation we occasionally have, the one thing I do know is that our family will have a family plot. For the record (though heads already know this) I don't want no casket (lawd dont put me in no box) and I want to be buried under some fruit tree some my folks can str8 eat me every year. Ha ha, yeah I know this aint suppose to be funny but hey, gotta take the edge off, non?
Well lemmie stop it now thius shit is kinda morbid...lmao.
Aint it a damn shame I don't have nufin better to blog about...HA.
Anywhooo....Just live like everyday is your last.
I'm working on that one myself...ERRRRE DAY!
shine.
Aaliyah
1979-2001
Wow it's been 4 years since Aaliyah has passed. So much has happened and changed. I still listen to her music. There are quite a few musicians I actually pause and miss hearing new stuff from. Sheeet I'm still feinding some new Marvin Gaye...lol@self. It's interesting today I went for my pre-op for my "procedure" and I was given a "living will". Every time I go to the hospital there is something to remind me of my mortality. The completion of this booklet, if you will, was type heavy. With stuff like;
- If I am close to death...
- If I am in a coma and I am not expected to wake up or recover...
But the most moving part of the booklet was this
My Wish for How Comfortable I Want to Be
(Please cross out anything that you don't agree with)
-I do not want to be in pain. I want my doctor to give me enough medicine to relieve my pain, even if that means that I will be drowsy or sleep more than I would otherwise.
-If I show signs of depression, nausea, shortness of breath, or hallucinations, I want my caregivers to do whatever they can to help me.
-I wish to have a cool most cloth put on my head if I have a fever.
-I want my lips and mouth kept moist to stop dryness.
-I wish to have warm baths often. I wish to be kept fresh and clean at all times.
-I wish to be massaged with warm oils as often as I can be.
-I wish to have my favorite music played when possible until my time of death.
-I wish to have personal care like shaving, nail clipping, hair brushing, and teeth brushing, as long as they do not cause me pain or discomfort.
-I wish to have religious readings and well loved poems read aloud when I am near death.
My Wish for How I Want People to Treat Me
(Please cross out anything that you don't agree with)
-I wish to have people with me when possible. I want someone to be with me when it seems that death may come at any time.
-I wish to have my hand held and to be talked to when possible, even if I don't seem to respond to the voice or touch of others.
-I wish to have others by my side praying for me when possible.
-I wish to have the members of my church or synagogue told that I am sick and asked to pray for me and visit me.
-I wish to be cared for with kindness and cheerfulness, and not sadness.
-I wish to have pictures of my loved ones in my room, near my bed.
-If I am not able to control my bowel or bladder functions, I wish for my clothes and bed linens to be kept clean, and for them to be changed as soon as they can be if they have been soiled.
-I want to die in my home, if that can be done.
My Wish for What I Want my Loved Ones to Know
(Please cross out anything that you don't agree with)
-I wish to have my family members and loved ones know that I love them.
-I wish to be forgiven for the times I have hurt my family, friends, and others.
-I wish to have my family members and friends know that I forgive them for what they may have done to me in my life.
-I wish for my family members and loved ones to know that because of the faith I have, I do not fear death itself. I think it is not the end, but a new beginning for me.
-I wish for all my family members to make peace with each other before my death, if they can.
-I wish for my family and friends to think about what I was like before I had a terminal illness. I want them to remember me in this way after my death.
-I wish for my family and friends to look at my dying as a time of personal growth for everyone, including me. This will help me live a meaningful life in my final days.
-I wish for my family and friends to get counseling if they have trouble with my death. I want memories of my life to give them joy and not sorrow.
-If anyone asks how I want to be remembered, please say the following about me:
The following person knows my funeral wishes:
-If there is to be a memorial service for me, I wish for this service to include the following (list music, songs, readings or other specific requests that you have):
-Add other wishes here (such as your wishes about donating any or all parts of your body when you die):"
WHEW! Yeah thats a bunch of shit to think about. But I'm feeling the play the music up in ma room. When I had my daughter I was bumping major Stevie Wonder and Roy Ayers up in the room. If by chance (knock on wood) I'm on my way out and Im in the hospital, I want some loud ass Tupac BANGIN!!! Damn skippy I want to have a clean ass and some drugs, Dunn! It's a trip that a lot of this stuff has to be put on paper.
Anywhoo...I got a bunch of stuff to make sure I get on paper properly that I've ignored due to my youth. I don't think we ever fewel we are going to need to make such preparations. After watching one of thats episodes of my favorite shoe Six Feet Under my mother started talking bout all this stuff. Of course I was like..."DONWANNAHEARIT". But shit when it's time it's time. In light of that conversation, that episode we watched as well as regular conversation we occasionally have, the one thing I do know is that our family will have a family plot. For the record (though heads already know this) I don't want no casket (lawd dont put me in no box) and I want to be buried under some fruit tree some my folks can str8 eat me every year. Ha ha, yeah I know this aint suppose to be funny but hey, gotta take the edge off, non?
Well lemmie stop it now thius shit is kinda morbid...lmao.
Aint it a damn shame I don't have nufin better to blog about...HA.
Anywhooo....Just live like everyday is your last.
I'm working on that one myself...ERRRRE DAY!
shine.
