Sick & Tired, Yet Happy In Spite Of
Sick of...
drawing, loosing words on the puter, being on edge, fighting the man, my 2D professor (yoking that chick in my fantasies), an inadequate amount of sex, having no time, being responsible, being an over achiever, my living situations, missing my doG, these bitch ass drivers on the road, drawing, decisions, ma slave wage, taxes, lack of mindless time, gas prices, driving 3+ hours to the farm, lack of effortless companionship, not really keeping up with all ma favorite blogs, bruises I keep getting on my legs, this drawing project I ain't started yet, customer service, the need to write poetry, old lovers, new front(i)ers, not enough sex, pluckin' my eyebrows, the dude that comes to my work smiling and taunting my reserve, that 10 lbs, replacing my keyboard, ma school administration, having my verbage second guessed and questioned, the prison system, ma poetic format, superbly delinquent child support, spam, no MP3 player in the whip, ma phone ringing, people that don't leave VM's, cleaning up after ma seed (grrrrrr), teases, wearing a common men's shoe size, not being where I wanna b.
Tired of...
Being the ONLY parent, doin' whats necessary and then some, missing my brother/s, no time for snail mail, ma budget, gassin' up ma car, the "size/style wars" of women's clothes, emails, no good snail mail, missing my peoples, living in the swamp, lack of mindless fun, struggle, drawing, art history, crap on the boob tube, not having the correct amount of hot weather, stooped jackasses period, whack parties, that last nigga, smoking, drinking coffee, being tired, people that just want something from me, self-consciousness bout ma age, not high enough test scores, workin' too HARD/MUCH, my sometimey speakers, GWB, Limewire, hot garbage hip hop, the news, homework, little release, a schedule, policy, not having an ipod, UK vintage gym shoe sellers, dirty adidas, driving, no me time, too little memory.
I miss...
Ma peoples, having time for anything, Miami beach time, the mic, vacations, MY BROTHER, good music in the club, ma grandma, PBS, reading, non-students, sewing, time being bored, morpheus, elica, picking flowers, writing, my own space, house music, enthusiasm, being sprung, hiking, being a passenger en route, time to do whatever I want, taking better then I expect pix, really really really all around fulfilling sex (spiritual/emotional/physcial), madwriter wrtiting, ma niece, talking to myself.
I luv...
The spring breeze, the stars on the farm, common, the craters in the moon, beachable weather, Savannah at 5AM, wearing less clothes, sportin' skirts, unexpected progress, feelin' maself, grand theft auto III, wedge heels, vintage sneakers, ma travel fund, back child support aquired, school, a pay check, A's on all assignments, my drawing professor Mr. McKinnon, deep kisses, the "most beautiful boogieman", durrrty thoughts, ma kid growing, ma name, being 30, leaving daylight savings time, the breeze, flowers, poets, making time to take pix, sandcastle contests, Tybee Island aka the beach, making the band 3, drawing, ma cut and dry honesty, money earned, buying pockabooks, all dem niggas, sleeping, Mr. Harris, ma attic on the farm, dakota diva (the horse on the Farm), ma daddy, being able to pay the bills (theimportantones), sexual tension, being busy, new scandals, breaking barriers, setting the pace, Ma Moma, GAWD!
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What is EVER balanced in life???
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