Whatever It Takes
No, I'm not gonna sit here and rant about the debate. It was real clear Kerry did his thing, and surprised me in the process. I still think he is the lesser of 2 evils and I don't appreciate his fence riding. We all eventually have to choose sides. He hasn't inspired me to go vote for him, cause I don't believe our votes count one and two the options are weak as hell.
First I gotta say IM SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY
SINCERE(<---click link) is posting again. Sometimes we gotta shed. Welcome back bruh!!!!!! Your words are important.
He mentioned something on his fist post on his new and improved blog that I'm gonna rap about. People on the net. People on the net for the most part have two faces, very true in some cases. I'm not going to stereotype folks on the net. That would be unfair because there are some that don't. Rare, but out there, I still believe. Now I've had some ill experiences building a friendship/relationship with people that I met online. I've had the hours of im's and hours of phone conversations. I've made and recieved long and short distance trips to build them. One that I got pretty close to (at lease I thought I did), once I got to know him, turned out to be one of those with 2 different personas. And in the end our friendship was disolved, in quite an sad and ugly way. But I knew where it was headed (I'm sure he would blame that perspective on the demise). I could see the parts of his real character over time that I did not like, maybe I just wasn't equipt to accept. I'm sure he could say the same about me. But the one thing I learned about him is how ellusive and mysterious he needed to be. Like he was protecting the detection of his "realtime" self. Shit I didn't even know the name that I was calling him wasn't even his first name. After knowing this person for almost 4 years I found out his real name while I was helping with his travel arrangements. And even then it seemed to be an issue or more like a game with him telling me his name. My point is that I have learned to be extremely cautious with the online community. To be aware that people are what they want you to see. So I deal with people on those terms. Not only respecting their desire to have their alter ego, but also to protect myself. However, inspite of my ways, one the realest cats I've given myself the opportunity as well as been fortunate enough to know online is
Dan Tres Omi. I got love for my brother from another mother and his fam. I've never spoken a single word on the phone with him nor have I met him. (The telephone I will discuss in a minute) But regardless Omi is one of the most giving people I've come in contact with in the real and web world. He gives and asks nothing in return. A quality that is extremely rare in people and a blessing to find. Big ups bruh! But people in the real world and the web world...I don't really trust. I choose to keep people at arms length. I can count my closest friends on one hand...they are the ones that have endured over many years. I know there will be more to add, but many have failed at some of the most basic points. So what I choose are to have people in my life in degrees. To share myself in degrees regardless if they are an online friend or a realtime friend. I know that is quite anti-social, and I'm working through that. As my mother says if you keep a tightly clenched fist, nothing can get out. But nothing can get in. This I do understand. In Gods time.
The Phone.
I hate the effin' phone. They just shut mine off today. And I don't give a flip. I have the money to pay the bill and will do so at my leisure. I don't like talking on the phone and could say I talk to a total of 5 people on the phone regularly. My mother, my best friends Eli, Nappy, Aaron and Chris. They all know that I hate my phone and unlike most, even when I'm refusing to pick up the phone they don't bitch me out. I don't like it when it rings. I don't like answering it. I don't like using it. I HATE THE PHONE RIGHT NOW. I've had too much drama cause of that thing over the past year. Talk to the voicemail.
As for where my head is at today. I'm disappointed that the house we were in the process of purchasing fell through. The dude selling the property got a lien on it that exceeds the purchase price he agreed upon. I look at it as just a sign, so we are moving on and it's back to the drawing board in finding another place. =( I so wanna move.
Other than that I've finally picked up a book (I've been majorly slacking on my reading...*slapping my own hand* bad Afeni). My friend
Kayo's (<---click link) book -
Bridges To Build Rivers To Cross Mountains To Move. I finally bit down and cop'd one from him recently (Supporting my folks doing the damn thing outside the matrix, as best as I can!). Although I have read with him and I'm familiar with his spoken word, his writing really a joy to read and as powerful as his microphone presence. Simply beautiful. If you love poetry and spoken word...go cop this one, it comes with a cd too.
Other than that I'm trying to keep my mind on forward movement. Trying to make sure that the blues don't catch me however frustrated and worried I might get. A change is coming and I can feel it. So balance is essential.
whateverworks.
