Blogging?!
Why do you blog?
Is it to be in a blog
clique and do that whole thing? Oh yes there are a bunch of bloggin cliques out there. You know post get all your blog homies to comment? Cause we all know you ain't cool unless you got people acknowledging that your blogging and sayin' some shit, right? You ain't really in it unless you got a 3 year stack of archives. Oh you ain't really down unless you got that saucee movable type ish either, right? Yeah unless you got 25 other blogs you post up for your audience to click to, you aint nobody, right?
Does it really hurt your feelings when you think no one is reading? Is what people actually think of what your saying more important than what your saying? Why are you saying it again? For the who or for the you? Are you writing to organize your thoughts or hear yourself talk via the puter screen. Are you blogging to be in a community or is it really one of those things a loner can really get into because of the distant communication?
Why are you blogging? Do you really give a flippin fuck what people think? Are you blogging some honest ish or is your blog a sex and the city column? Does it matter that some people talk about what they might understand, however simple or complex?
I don't know, I just write. I have my moments of doubt sometimes. Some days I'm real conscious that there are people actually reading. Some days I don't give a flyin fart. Some days it's all about being informative, sometimes I'm talkin' smack. Some days I edit myself, some days I don't. Sometimes I write bout ish I've learned in order share sometimes I vent to get it out my system. But really this blog is a test for me. It's a way for me to see myself stick with a motivation. It might end it might not. It's a mirror for me to look into to see my personal evolution. I often go back and read my archives to see wtf I was yackin bout. I like to read blogs. They can be on some literary ish or just be a release of what's on peoples mind. But I'm not here for the whole social thing really. Shit I don't even have a social life in the real world. People are just to damn complicated and draining for all that for me right now. Maybe that will change, maybe not. I'm not here for pity or understanding but I often wonder if some folks blog for that reason. Sure it's nice to see that sometimes I'm not the only MF going through ish, but is that what it boils down to, no. Yeah I ain't gonna front it's nice to see a kind word left too, don't get it twisted. I am often pleasantly surprised at what some folks leave, encouragement, heads up, understanding. I post up here not only for the people I don't know but the people I do that don't really know me. I post cause this will be an awesome thing for my seed to read eventually. This is not a facade, this is me. I'm not pretending to be on some other ish, I just am. It's just as much isolating quality as it is an interesting one, for some. So be it. This be where I'm at, take it or leave it.
I watch people visit my site and leave no mark. Some days that agitates me, some days it doesn't. WTF ever I've mentioned it before then I had to get over it. I also peeped that maybe there ain't ish to respond with. It definitely ain't a requirement to pop on by.
But yeah this little corner in the blogoshpere is for me as much it is for you all that read, link, comment or nothing at all. To please and incite may be a fresh reaction and reward at times but it is incidental in all.
So why am writing all this? Well on my daily visit to one of my frequented blogs (I will not mention names nor link) I found that they have decided to bounce on the blog tip. I read the reasons but I don't really get why. I definitely think there is something deeper going on that may need more attention than the time and energy it often takes to maintain a stoopid blog. I'm just assuming. But for whatever the reason, they will be missed (granted the hiatus sticks).
The logos are a powerul thing. Incantations, prayers, affirmations, meditations, however you wanna see the power of words. When you speak and write you are creating. You communicate negativity, confusion, chaos that's exactly what you'll get out of it.
Okay now this post is beginning to perturb me.
Just put yo ish into the universe with a purpose people because intern your creating your own reality. Yes, yes yall I do agree with that one.
iamwhatimthinkin.
